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ITCHES MY SKIN OFF BECAUSE MY DAD PASSED DOWN HIS SKIN PROBLEMS TO ME !/!/!/?/ ITCHES SO HARD
#see but I start scrapping with my dad then suddenly… SUDDENLYYYYY#SUDDENLYYYYY#thank you father for giving me ur skin.#me when i get hives#me when im itchy and red touching anything#ME WHEN I CANT EVEN TOUCH DOORKNOB#guys save me
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Okay, let's finally talk about EPIC's Apollo
I feel very compelled to say, first of all, that I do not dislike Epic. In fact, I am very fond of Epic and have been following its production and status very eagerly! I attend all the launch streams, I watch all of Herrans' update videos; I am, at the end of the day, a fan and I want it to be known that my words are spoken out of love and passion as much as they are spoken from a place of critique.
So really, what my problem with Epic's Apollo?
In the briefest possible terms; the choice to have Apollo be defined by his musical aspect in God Games is thematically strange. And not in the 'oh well in the Odyssey, Apollo was important to Odysseus and his family so it's weird that that wasn't kept in Epic' strange, strange in the sense that Odysseus' character arc since My Goodbye has been getting more and more obviously Apollonian and so it is positively bizarre that when we get to meet Apollo, the god seems entirely disinterested in him and his affairs. So much so that he is not even defined by any station that would indicate that he has been watching over and protecting Odysseus and his family.
What do I mean by 'Odysseus has been following an Apollonian arc'? I'm so glad you asked!
Remember Them is the last song in which Odysseus explicitly uses his sword until Mutiny where he must use it to defend himself against Eurylochus' blade. He uses it to help enact the plan to conquer Polyphemus and, due to Polites dying in that battle, Polites who wished for Odysseus to put the blade down entirely and embrace a post-war life, Odysseus also retires his sword. This is an action that symbolically separates him from Athena - and the image of Odysseus as a traditional warrior set for him in Horse and Infant - as much as My Goodbye physically separates him from the goddess and her war-ways - from this point onwards, Odysseus will no longer be leaning on Athena's wisdom or methods to solve his problems. Likewise, he will no longer be able to rely on her protection.
Odysseus thusly solves most of his upcoming problems through diplomacy and avoidance. He approaches Aeolus - a strange and ambiguous god (both in gender and in motivation) and appeals to them for help. Circe too, he approaches not with wishes to conquer or for revenge, but for the safe returning of his men and an alternate way forward. In all of these scenarios, there is some Apollonian element which is subtly interweaved alongside the influence of other gods; it is with a bow and arrows that Polyphemus' sheep is slain (and thus it is this Apollonian element which is at the root of Odysseus' spat with Poseidon), it is a vision of Penelope that warns Odysseus that his men are about to open Aeolus' wind-bag, Circe's peace offering to Odysseus is to refer him to a prophet of Apollo who has since died.
In this way, Apollo is walking alongside Odysseus for all of his journey after Athena departs - even in the Underworld, he is guiding him. It is Tiresias' proclamation that is the last straw for Odysseus, it is by the power of a mouthpiece of Apollo that Odysseus decides to embrace his ruthlessness. It is with the bow and arrow that Odysseus subdues the siren who sought to trick him, likewise, Odysseus does not attempt to undermine or escape the fate of paying Scylla's passage price - he knows of the doom about to befall the six men and quite unlike the rest of the journey until this point, he does not fight against it. This all comes to a head on Thrinacia where it is a blade which sacrifices the sun god's cow and brings destruction upon the crew once more.
My point with all of this is that when I heard the teasers for God Games years ago, it made perfect sense to me that Apollo would be Round One - he is not Odysseus' adversary and has no reason to oppose Athena's wish to free him. From other teasers about what will happen in the climax of Epic, Apollo will still be walking alongside Odysseus - it is Apollo's bow that Penelope will give the suitors to string. Likewise, it is Apollo's bow that will prove Odysseus' legitimacy and identity. That bow will be the power by which Odysseus hunts his adversaries and cleans out his palace - it is Apollo who is the avatar of Odysseus' ruthlessness, not Athena.
So tell me, truly, what was the point of having Apollo raise a non-argument in God Games? Why have him appear unconcerned, aloof and slightly oblivious? Why have him appear in his capacity as the Lord of Music at all?? And if the intention was never to make Apollo an active player in Odysseus' life like he was in the Odyssey, why keep Odysseus as a primary archer?
The answer of course is that Apollo is inextricable from the fabric of the Odyssey - his influence and favour exudes from Odysseus just as much as Athena's. In Athena's ten year sulk, it would have been Apollo who kept Telemachus and Penelope safe. It would have been Apollo protecting Odysseus from Poseidon's gaze as he travelled the seas (according to the Odyssey anyway)
Forgive me for not being excited about something that I thought was being purposefully set up. I was extremely ecstatic about all of the little Apollonian details that litter the sagas because I know where this story ends up (loosely) but all God Games did was reveal that maybe those Apollonian details were not intentional at all, but merely the ghost of the Apollo who persistently haunts those he favours, even if he cannot explicitly come to their aide in an adaptation.
#ginger rambles#apollo#odysseus#epic the musical#athena#This of course is not mentioning the whole 'in the Odyssey the suitors have been explicitly praying#for Apollo to kill Telemachus so they can have free reign and Apollo is just going 'what's that? I'm sorry I can't hear haters' thing#I'm actually so disappointed by Apollo in God Games because I truly did believe that it was leading up to Apollo and Athena#BOTH being by Odysseus' side in the end#I really like the fandom view that Apollo used the sirens as an excuse because he has nothing against Odysseus#but in order for me to give that any merit there would have needed to be something in the text itself to support that#And Apollo only has the three-four lines which like - in and of itself is crazy#I really wish Apollo and Hephaestus had full verses like Aphrodite/Ares#Or at least a back and forth like Hera#The milquetoast Apollo who is apparently upset about murder but then only took a light rebut for him back down#I'm sorry have you not seen Apollo when he's mad about murder before? He's not that reasonable I promise you#I'm just not going to talk about him being mad about the sirens specifically if I think about that too long I'll get hives#Looking very forward to when Penelope finally gets her song 😭😭😭#Cannot believe you still don't have your song debut my queen the Odysseus economy is also in shambles
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i have been stewing in the hate crimes md content for almost a month now, why did nobody tell me that house's subconscious (the Amber hallucination) literally told him to tell wilson he loves him. that happened on my screen. i rewatched it 5 times with my volume all the way up bcs it felt like a fever dream. pain and repression show.
#what the fuck#why havent i seen 1500 gif sets of this#the way he shouts ENOUGH to get her to stop talking is also delicious#and like.#after a season of detached and emotionally unavailable wilson...#when he finally tells house he is fine with things getting back to normal between them...#after this makes house happy and hopeful for exactly 2 minutes... she appears and crushes down whatever hope he might have had#but not before hiving us this not before making it abundantly fucking clear that no matter how hard he tries to suppress it ITS ABOUT WILSON#the fucking 'so this is the story you made up abt who you are'. it hit me so hard. he is calling himself out on being repressed#he is also so fucking insane abt wilson i am feeling unwell#hate crimes md#house md#repression md#hilson
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wanted to draw the girls from hunchback of notre dame 1 and 2 dancing cause they both have a red dress and i thought it would be cute
+ it always seemed likely to me that one of the triplets in beauty and the beast was only pretending to go along with her sisters... and due to that she’s good at playing a role but not so much at being herself so when she gets an interest in belle she suddenly turns real shy
do not erase the caption, use or rePOST my art (reblog ok)
#my art#fan art#Disney#Disney Pixar#The Hunchback of Notre Dame#beauty and the beast#wlw#Sapphic#lesbian art#femslash#disney femslash#the quality of hunchback 2 is really bad but love that movie#madeleine is really cute and i don't even mind her only existing to be mc girlfriend#when you think about it it IS weird they made a second movie just to give him a gf#but at least it was cute? which isn't always the case so... lucky!#also i get the triplets are just bg charas but them having a hive mind really bothers me#and my headcanon feels very relatable/understandable so u kno
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of all the star wars movies, which of them do y'all 1) enjoy the most 2) consider the best quality and 3) think you've rewatched the most. add your answers in the reblogs or replies, i'm genuinely curious how much of an overlap there is within everyone's three answers. mine don't overlap at all! they're revenge of the sith, empire strikes back, and the force awakens :^)
#len speaks#star wars#revenge of the sith#empire strikes back#the force awakens#not tagging more films than that bc i cant b bothered. incoming tag ramble ahead bc i have sw brainrot rn and im making it everyones prob❤️#i rlly struggled 2 remember if id watched tfa or aotc more. i went w/ tfa bc it was formative to me as a teen and ive seen it probably 6ish#times? whereas aotc was the first sw movie i remember (specifically the scene of obiwan serving c*nt in the bar lmao) but i've only seen it#for sure 4.5 and maybe 5.5 times. the .5 is from when i got bored after obi-wan's scene ended and ran off to go play in the mud or smthn 😭#i'm sure tfa will eventually get surpassed in number of rewatches by aotc and rots bc i don't fw the direction of the ST but that's my#current ballpark estimate of my total number of rewatches#as an adult tho if i just wanna watch a star war i'll go with aotc bc it's fun and ends semihappily and i can turn my brain off for the#spinny lightsabers. it's great background noise or for if you're sick or whatever. rots on the other hand? i won't talk through that unless#i'm quoting it with my brother and i am LOCKED IN 100% entirely entranced by it all#i almost picked rogue one for the best quality answer but i think the character writing is weaker and the facial cgi is creepy. esb beats#it by a hair imho bc of that. the vader hallway scene goes hard tho!!!#also i'm not covering shows or games or books or anything else in this post - simply the films. might ask abt shows later but that might#also give me hives bc so many of the shows suck ass and i don't rlly want ppl extolling the virtues of t.bb in my notes 💀#and yes i do think one's enjoyment and one's opinion of quality are two things that often overlap. but sometimes you just like something#bad and that's awesome. like rots is the best of the prequels by a large margin and i adore the opening and characters and many of the#scenes but that doesn't mean it's the best star wars has to offer ykwim? it's my specialest most favoritest sw movie but that doesn't blind#me to the dialogue lmfaooo
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every time I see that scene of Ian laughing with Caleb about Mickey’s rape and forced marriage I actually want to tear my hair out
#shameless#mickey milkovich#such an unbelievably shitty thing to do man#why would he ever try to make light of that especially with someone who doesn’t even know Mickey#I get that he was trying to distance himself from that part of his life and move on#and get some sort of validation from Caleb bc he craved it sm especially cos of how different their lives were#but it’s still such a shit thing to do#that was just never addressed#AND this was the only time 3x06 was EVER addressed and they make fun of it??????? seriously come on#the Mickey is The Worst narrative in s6 is actually painful to sit through#he was 18 when it happened to him !! 18 !!#this scene and the prison scene give me hives#ian gallagher#also#wonder how older Ian feels knowing he made fun of the worst day of his husbands life#like genuinely#when mickey struggles with that day post canon#does he ever think back to that conversation and shudder
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my favourite passtime is making up incredibly unaccurate armour designs. That's a lie my passtime is researching but this comes at a close second
#[.art]#is it even armour at this point? it's a chestplate with a mantella over it. It's armour to me. In spirit.#oh I dread to maintag this but my blog has to be organised or I get hives so I am in fact putting this in at least his tag#This was mostly an excuse for me to shade metal and draw armour but he's there as a character base because I wanted to put constellations i#Javert#les miserables#les mis#<- the- what was it. The mortifying ordeal of being known? me when I post art I did for fun in my free time#also this file is called knightvert. You should know this#also I got an answer about the constitution in place in 1820 and I regret to inform you that mister Valjean was probably elected lawfully#mostly because he'd been there for the minimum required year in order to be a citisen and be appointed by the prefect as mayor#or by the double decimal process if we go by 1799 law and not the 1814 charter.#not counting the fake identity but alas I do not believe proof of identity was required by law for that so. Dreadfully not added to the lis#which doesn't exclude entirely document forgery because I believe property law comes into the needing proof of identity?#But I've been looking at french law for three days and I need to not read for a week now So I'll check that later
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Hey y'all! It's weird question time again! So that doctor I mentioned before that I wanted to make a dog plushie for because he has improved my quality of life so much* (and also inexplicably reminds me of like a greyhound or a borzoi) is my endocrinologist And, as my endocrinologist, he recommended back in December that I go see a rheumatologist, because he thinks I might have rheumatoid arthritis**. The staff at his office have been trying to get a rheumatologist for four months now. I know that, because yesterday I got a call from the rheumatologist's office and the nurse I spoke to said "Your doctor's office has been very...persistent about getting you this appointment" So now I kinda want to get something for the whole office? But idk what I could get them or make them. Like, in non-medical contexts I'd make cookies or brownies for a group, but I can't bring cookies to a doctor's office. I mean, I guess I could, but if I were them I would definitely not eat them, and I run the risk of allergy-ing a fellow patient. Is there like a gift basket or gift card or thank you card or something you can recommend?
*I mean he maybe should have found a diagnosis before offering me steroids about it but the low dose steroids have made such a HUGE difference in my quality of life I am thrilled with Tennessee's weird (to me, with my experience in California) medical practices **I don't think I have enough joint pain for it to be rheumatoid arthritis, but he's like the fourth doctor to tell me it's weird that when I got hives they usually started on joints, so maybe I'm wrong? I have the weird version of enough medical things that at this point I would not be surprised if I had Weird Rheumatoid Arthritis.
#the person behind the yarn#I want to show my appreciation to these people!#but in a not-super-weird way#because they are my doctors and I want them to think I am a normal human who is rational#so they continue to treat me well. because I am a little paranoid about that with doctors#because of That One Guy at the local urgent care back in socal#who decided one day I had anxiety instead of. you know. allergies.#and he saw me before the allergies got super bad when it was just moderate hives and gave me anxiety meds about it#and then like a year later I was in the beginning stages of a severe allergic reaction#which I knew by then was going badly so I went to the urgent care (like my doctor told me to!) to get steroids for it#and the same guy gave me anxiety meds again and sent me home#I had to go back the next day to get steroids#and the second doc took one look at me and like left the room to go set up a steroid shot#I was COVERED in hives#anyway it both makes me appreciate good doctors#and makes me want to try very hard to make them think I am Not Anxious#something both normal to want and possible to achieve lol
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hey quick question is anyone else scared
#savrambles#not writing#just like. in general#i love that my emotions manifest physically like when im anxious and i break out in hives that really helps me be not anxious /s#and then i get asked if im allergic to something and im like “oh. you know. fear”
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found this in my commission folder.... memories
#remember when i hated malyen oretsev so much his name alone would make me break out in hives?? remember those times??? crazy man#if there's one thing that makes me sad about sab being cancelled it's that i won't get to see pirate mal#sab liveblog#i have no idea why it is in my commission folder it doesn't have a place there
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🍤 ; but unlike kate sharma who is not allergic to bees, i am, in fact, allergic to shrimps HAHAHAHA
happy birthday, haru ! ⋆˙⟡♡
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#fromaryg: selfship#fromaryg: hara#tokyo revengers#sanzu#haruchiyo sanzu#sanzu haruchiyo#tina this is for you#lit the no. 1 hara stan...w haru like yall be competing for that title HSAHAH#HAHAHAHAHA#bro it do be goofy bc i did this on a whim HAHSHA#me and haru at takehina’s wedding hehe#btw i only get hives from shrimps so it’s manageable#who doesnt love shrimps bro#if u dont like shrimps give it to me#tweedlesan is from the twin boys in alice in wonderland#imma save it for when i do youtuber haru and senju#in my head they be tweedle dee and tweedle dum#but tweedlesan(zu) and tweedlesen(ju)#also catch the credits#reaper photography#hehe it’s also for when i do photographer hanma#anyway haru i will in fact be the bane of your existence#if there’s cetirizine#u will always be witnessing shrimp eating typa crime scene 😎 HAHAHAHA
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Hes all i think about 😘
#i love bullying my favs#get loser-fied 💥💥#teen titans#teen titans go#hive five#kyd wykkyd#dcu#fanart#shitpost#interpretations of his character is either dark and mysterious#or just a goofy goober#but u cant tell me he's not a goofy goober when his costume is LITERALLY A BATMAN COSPLAY 🙄😩
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HAY SO UMMM...I saw that you mentioned a nsfw twitter...and I have been digging for...research reasons I can't seem to find it tho, is there a place you could direct me to?
have you dug Everywhere?
the link to the tumblr is in my pinned
and thats basically linked to my twitter @/HotSatans but i am once again warning you there is so much call of duty shlongs n holes in there so if you're not into cod atm i wouldnt go there AGAGAGA and as always dont interact if ur under 18 u will be shot on sight
#and the rare ollie ramsuse hot dog stand#if u dont have a twitter there is a patreon link in my tumblr too but dont feel obligated to give me money blease#im trying to get around to drawing my ocs again but when i tell you i have over 100 cod requests on my curious cat over there im#the next round i wanna draw some kari ollie bc im breaking out into hives from not drawing them
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I literally will think of the stupidest shit and if it makes me giggle, it's "canon" now. It just is. Idk why I keep doing this.
#Odysseus goes full stupid when he first meets Penelope. Helen is a lil “mad scientist” with her potions. Menelaus is a silly sealy boy.#Menelaus and Odysseus have sleepovers where they cry about their families. Odyssseus and Diomedes are toxic exes#Clytemnestra is a horse girl. PENELOPE IS THE WATER WIFE™ WHO DOES WEIRD SHIT!!!#...#Anyways. can I get some suggestions from the homies for something Odysseus is allergic to? Anything except animals.#doesn't have to be something eaten it can just be him touching it. kind of thinking of shrimp as that was something#ancient Greece had. This is literally because the thought of someone being like “You ate/got into ___ again didn't you?!”#*red hives. voice all raspy and fucked up. not gonna die but you know* “...No.”#and that just feels like something Odysseus would do and it's so fucking funny to me#also. what better way to feign madness to dodge a draft than to get sick with fever and then end up insane? >:D#shot by odysseus#Mad rambles#my headcanons
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Working on the Hornblower rote piano with Stephen and Jack fic again and I'm contemplating how it would be to play rote piano. This man truly loves suffering doesn't he
#it's probably like when you're playing on an electric keyboard that's not on. which is a thing i've done but i'd be scared to do that#and have other people be able to hear me#also with the added fun of like an annoying clamor every time you do something that would truly be miserable#a very hornblower thing to do though he'd absolutely subject himself to that#perce rambles#percy yells at cecil scott#sorry just thinking about having to sightread something in this way and getting hives but y'know what i kind of get it#adrenaline rush or smth
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A couple months ago (at least I think it was, but time is weird for me), I purchased an African Violet. This is a plant that's been in my life since early childhood. I had one until my husband killed it during one of our moves; he put it in full sun on a hot day. These plants burn. Just an hour in direct sun is enough to do serious damage. I was at our new place, directing where things go, and six hours later he arrived with a completely cooked plant. No, I was no okay, and more than ten years later I'm still very fucking upset. He's well aware of this.
Which is why he didn't argue when I said I'm getting an African Violet. They were $6 and poorly cared for at the local gardening place. On the container, it says "keep out of direct sunlight" and "water from the bottom." They had them in barely filtered light and were water from above. Yes, I fucking corrected them. The guy threw a fit and called the gardening manager over, who asked if I wanted to work there and sent the other guy to put the plants in a different area.
They had no self-water pots, nor African Violet food. Those are the kind African Violets need. So I've had mine in its original container until today. It started showing signs of dying a week ago, and was getting way too large for the container it came in. I'm using general potting soil because that always worked fine for my previous plant. I had to repot that thing four times! African Violet food will need to be acquired soon-ish.
My husband came home with a self-watering pot today. He went to four different places to find one! A couple days ago I was have a Very Bad Day, and seeing my plant rapidly failing was what set the dam of tears flowing. It was Bad. He was my hero today, didn't even tell me he was getting a pot. The plant has since been re-potted. I soaked the soil before adding the plant and dry soil, something my mom taught me (she has around half a dozen African Violets). If it does well, I'll see about acquiring more in the future. I have a spot on my PC desk set aside for an African Violet. The one I have is on my cutting table, the corner nearest the window.
I now have six pothos plants (all cuttings from the same one), one spider plant that may soon become two, and an African Violet. Next week, I may be filling some containers with soil and wildflower seeds from the front yard. There's too many weeds and general crap in the front yard for anything but more weeds and general crap to grow, so we're more or less destroying it, then adding layers of organic matter (six inches or more of fallen leaves and other similar stuff), and leaving it alone for a year or two while I add more containers. I intend to acquire tires of various sizes, a bathtub, and some other similar items, to decorate the yard and serve as containers. Because it amuses me, we own the house, and I fucking can. Even told the neighbors, and they found it hilarious. When the soil is ready, I'll add native wildflowers, some milkweed (monarch butterflies navigate through here), and other native plants that self-seed and will require minimal effort. The backyard will be treated much the same, but with raised beds for food and herbs, and walkable paths.
For now, my current plants will have to do. I'm just hoping my African Violet survives the transfer and thrives in the significantly larger and more appropriate pot. The other held maybe two cuts of wet soil. This? A gallon, possibly more.
#chaosfay talks#plants#I love gardening. I love the smell of potting soil. I love playing in the dirt.#but my allergy to grass is severe. hives within minutes. straw hat? hives. My SIL didn't believe me and got me one a few years ago.#so I went walking wearing it while she hung out at the house. A couple miles later I return and have her examine my skin.#she's an ICU nurse. book smart but not life smart. genuine dumbass. she was shocked when she saw the hives everywhere the hat had been#touching me. took me straight to the doctor where I got necessary medicine to get rid of the reaction and prevent things from getting worse#hay? anaphylaxis. this is after 11 years of allergy shots btw. I used to be allergic to everything but horses and mold on the allergy#scratch test. Now two trees cats and every grass under the sun. grass is great when it's far away from me and my home.
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